12Th House Stellium

I am in love with the trees standing like giants along the Road to home.... The sunlight dancing between them are the only things that have not changed from since I was a child.

Chasing streetlights at 2.30am Wondering where you are,  Thinking about the things you were made for, Thinking you're shinning like these stars. Bright lights and places to go, Among people who knew your name... You belonged with beautiful things These streetlights they fade fast and never let me forget my shame. Some nights, like tonight, I wonder if you saw my world, would you look away? Would you give me a second glance or have just one understanding thought Why sometimes life goes this way. -C.M.

Reality was a cookie that wouldn't crumble,  It was that one grain of pea that just kept spilling off my spoon,  I tried to make sense of things...... life really, But to each his own,  and it's 3 am and reality just hit me like a bullet on fire, It's 3 am and my hair's a mess, It's 3 am and my mind's tired, It's 3 am and I can't sleep,  It's 3 am and There was barely any money left, It's 3 am and im alone, It's 3 am and i didn't have a job,  It's 3 am and he didn't call.... Reality was he didn't call and for the millionth time I needed to stop making excuses for why I didn't deserve 2 minutes, It's 3 am and for me reality was a cookie that wouldn't crumble, It was a grain of pea that kept spilling off my spoon. C.M.

And so the glass sky had shattered, And even the mountains broke and came down into a crashing avalanche, In a distance I stood still, I watched in wonderment as I heard nothing, And every thought was inflamed, It burned in all it's glory, Fueled by every great expectation, Even my eyes I had closed, There was no need to watch my crimson moments I nurtured so dearly, be obliterated in the fury, The piercing sharpness of reality tormented my mind I was only ever angry with myself, Had I never placed you among angels, Had I never insisted that you be part of my heaven, Then maybe I wouldn't have been bounded in my own hell. C.M.