12Th House Stellium

We fall, like stars...... We fall Burning out, Giving our everything to make the last moment count, To make it so perfect that even a memory of it is one second less than perfection.

Everyday I fall deeper and deeper, Everyday I feel my thoughts of who I am, creep further and further away from myself, Im drowning... Im hopelessly grasping the surface, sinking,  Im afraid.. Is this the rest of my life? "Im sorry...."

It's so easy to get consumed into everything else, but, the things that actually matter.

Maybe walking away from you might be best, but I'm afraid the earth might shift, I might fall off, The seas may rage... and bring on a tempest so powerful, that no soul would withstand it's fury, Even the heavens may send down it's wrath, a reign of fire from the skies... So I will save us all the trouble, I'll walk behind you, lonely  shadow

Over my 25 years of living..I've seen people use other people's body or face to define beautiful or handsome... I cannot make the connection though If someone were to ask me what beauty looks like.. I'd tell them.. Beauty is the way his voice softens when he says something funny, it's the way he talks about his loneliness, it's his mischievous wit while he defends his opinions, it's his childish laugh that brings a smile to my face, it's his calming presence when the world is about to fall apart it's his silence when he listens, it's his pain he hides, it's his determination to never give up.. Beauty for me, is the way he thinks he is less than perfect, If only he knew that he never had to be more or less  that he was perfection itself...