12Th House Stellium

And there you stood under the streetlight, Trying hard not to look into your eyes, But it broke me into a million fragments, And I could never have helped but to be taken away into an ocean of you, Pulled in by the tides, And caressed by the waves of your thoughts, In one moment, I was broken down and made whole again, Even in one moment, Did my heart stopped, And even my voice faltered, And there was madness in my voice, Not the senseless madness, The madness that makes you think you can catch a star in one leap, And my heart knew, Even if I never had another moment like that with you, That this moment, it happened, And it was mine forever

Spilling through your window, Through curtains swept aside, Moonlight touched your face, Starlight kissed your eyes, Your tired voice told me, Words you wanted to say, You didn't say it straightforwardly, I rejoiced in your delay, Under your breath you spoke, Almost a whisper of a wave, Rushed my blood like a thousand tremor, My heartbeat you've enslaved, The minutes went by into hours, The world was fast asleep, Two of us alone existed, Falling fast, falling deep.... In the deepest hours of the night, It was time we ended our dance I had become so lost within you, Forever my soul you enchant Spilling through your window, Through curtains swept aside, Moonlight touched your face,  Starlight kissed your eyes... C.M.

She grasped handfuls of life and swallowed it up, it flooded through her fingers, and whisked through her hair, indeed space and time stood still and beheld  holding it's breath for every moment she breathed it was a thing of wonder, how simplicity could've ever been so perfect. C.M.

Those few stolen moments, They stopped time just to exist, Intimate dance of our colors merging, Only for a second, I gazed into your eyes and tasted your desires, I remain thirsty thereafter, There is nothing to suffice me, My love, we touch on a soul level, They won't understand how beautiful we become together, But how sweet our hidden moments be, Better for us only to know, to feel... I wouldn't want it any other way, You and I only... C.M.

Empty spaces, dismal faces, My heart in my throat my mind races, Sleepless nights can't contain my fright, Piercing deep this darkened light, Tear the walls, these flooded halls, Drowning in these hopeless calls, Tomorrow is near, hope will bear Fearless hearts don't a shed tear.  -C.M.

I thought emotions were a tragedy, The worst happens when you bury them into expectations of someone else, they crash and burn, like making that swerve into the wrong lane,  it's coming towards you and you know you should do something, but those moments before the bang are calm,   in slow motion, you let yourself go. then the jolt hits and you're lying there.. wondering... barely alive, but breathing... you are just breathing... Youth and the need to be dramatic are like the horizon and the dawn, it passes and eventually you shall see that emotions are not to be used on anyone, it's there for you to feel what having the sky under your skin feels like, it's there for you to experience how the music of life can make your soul dance, it's the fuel that burns within you, burns to be let out into passionate floods of inspiration. -C.M. (Experience Is The Best Teacher-Proverb )

I like to look deep into the night, Listen to the sound of stars falling, I am alone, Only in solitude do I see you clearly, In fact, we all seem to be broken in places, sometimes we find the things that can heal the ones we see, like music, or art, or nature or poetry, then there are people who come along, and surely enough, they touch you deep like the way only the moonlight can touch the sea they mend the holes in your soul and before you know it, you realize they made you whole again, you are re-birthed re-birthed from the kindness and love they willfully give nothing so beautiful as that.  -C.M.

She was water, she quenched his thirsty soul, filled the cracks under his skin, he healed in her stillness. "Our entanglement is not merely from fate alone, I chose you, I looked into your eyes and I saw your brokenness. I saw how much you needed to come alive again. You chose me, You touched my soul and felt me worthy enough to heal your brokenness. To make you whole again" -C.M

There are days I stare out the window, and a romantic notion takes over my soul, I think, If I cannot do for you the kindess I wish, Then I shall bestow the, love, the peace and goodwill unto those less deserving, I think maybe doing it with you in mind, the universe will feel my plight, and pity my tragic disposition and get all that was ment for you to you somehow, I hope she does, I hope through someone else, if not me, that you will receive what was ment for you.  -C.M.

Moments upon moments, hours upon hours, days upon days, you never leave my mind, you have captured me, I dance into the night, I dance with the sound of your name on my lips, My eyes closed my heart leads the way following the tune of your soul, I cast unto the wind a whisper of your name, and I hope she carries my voice, that you may hear my song song I sing for only you. - C.M

I don't just want your bed of roses embrace, I don't just want your honey sweet words, Don't give me just your sunny smiles, Nothing in this is perfection, I want to live with you where love and hate collides I want to merge into your darkness, and feel the wrath of your lonely tears. Only the moon knows why she loves the darkness of the night, Only the waves knows why he will become a horrid tempest for her...

Between you and I rumpled sheets flow, bodies merge together ... breathtakingly slow, handfuls of your hair through my finger run, passion so deep, jealous are the moon and the sun, blood on fire, darkest desire, drink long from sweet lips, grasp hard to hungry hips, a tickle a trickle a song to admire.. -C.M

We fall, like stars...... We fall Burning out, Giving our everything to make the last moment count, To make it so perfect that even a memory of it is one second less than perfection.

Everyday I fall deeper and deeper, Everyday I feel my thoughts of who I am, creep further and further away from myself, Im drowning... Im hopelessly grasping the surface, sinking,  Im afraid.. Is this the rest of my life? "Im sorry...."

It's so easy to get consumed into everything else, but, the things that actually matter.

Maybe walking away from you might be best, but I'm afraid the earth might shift, I might fall off, The seas may rage... and bring on a tempest so powerful, that no soul would withstand it's fury, Even the heavens may send down it's wrath, a reign of fire from the skies... So I will save us all the trouble, I'll walk behind you, lonely  shadow

Over my 25 years of living..I've seen people use other people's body or face to define beautiful or handsome... I cannot make the connection though If someone were to ask me what beauty looks like.. I'd tell them.. Beauty is the way his voice softens when he says something funny, it's the way he talks about his loneliness, it's his mischievous wit while he defends his opinions, it's his childish laugh that brings a smile to my face, it's his calming presence when the world is about to fall apart it's his silence when he listens, it's his pain he hides, it's his determination to never give up.. Beauty for me, is the way he thinks he is less than perfect, If only he knew that he never had to be more or less  that he was perfection itself...